Suppose to be doing my Outdoor Activities (OA) bronze now.
But i felt dizzy the whole time we were doing theory. My head was spinning, like vertigo... It really didn't get better at all.
Then i wanted to go home, so ms hing let me, and got early release form and stuff, but i had to wait for daddy for super long ):

Then after that, he scolded me in the car for being sick.
He says that it's my own fault for not getting enough sleep and that i'm being inconsidered this way because he always has to fetch me from school, plus he has other things to do, and he has to rush back for a meeting at 1 and he was going to bring my younger sister to buy new shoes now, but because of me, he can't bring her.

Do you know how guilty i felt?
I started crying, but it was just like tears were welling up in my eyes.
But the worst part is that i felt guilty even though i wasn't trying to pon school. I wasn't trying to pon OA bronze at all!
& i still feel sad.

Then i got home and threw a tantrum ):
I made everybody upset. I think i really shouldn't have done that.
Not fair of me to take it out on them.
But, i was pissed, so i slammed the door, drew the curtains, switched on the aircon, and then, for some unknown reason, i really cried. The tears, they fell from my face onto my arms, I wasn't even aware that i was crying until i felt water droplets falling onto my arm.

I actually feel really offended and sad.
I mean, I wasn't lying that I was sick, yet my father thought i was doing it on purpose to escape camp or something... Then his idea of having better things to do was to go bring my sister to buy new shoes.
I don't know how to describe how I feel.
But i definitely don't feel happy now.

I just ate a lot of ruffles chips and one bar of nestle milkybar double berry chocolate.
Comfort food i think.
But i feel like i ate them on impulse. I wasn't craving either, i just... started eating it.

I think that i shall go sleep now.
Just now when I was sick, i felt so drained of energy.
& Ms Chuan said i looked really pale when she saw me in the General Office.
She meant pale, as in ghostly pale... like cang bai. Yeah...

I feel sick, upset, energy drained.
Oh, and my heartbeat felt like it was slowing just now.
I thought i was going to die.
Well, i really hope i wake up after i go to sleep now.
Sigh... ):