my ego disappeared.

seriously.
why is it that when you see my pic you say "Ew" ?
and then after that i say i feel insulted and that like "im sorry im not pretty"
and you can say "no, your pretty :) and cute :) im sorry..."
Are you freaking shitting me? (say it with a british accent)

Please stop being so hypocritical, it's killing my ego.
It's killing my esteem.
It's killing ME.

You didn't even sound like you were joking the first time.
I doubt you were.
It's scary you know... being me sometimes.
I think people don't understand that.

I have insecurities because im human.
Please, don't push me to the edge.

And fuck, be nice to my friend.
Don't ask her stuff only because its your last resort.
She's not stupid, geez.
She knows, and she's hurt, and she freaking liked you in the first place.

Sometimes, i seriously think you deserve to be called a bastard.
Then again, your my good friend.
It's hard okay.

For now anyway,
i've got no ego.
Fuck it.