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angsty all over again
Sunday, March 13, 20118:40 PM
i post my last post, i re-read to check for grammatical/vocabulary errors. Then i stop and think.
I think about how, in a while, in a few days, i will forgive my dad. I will put this in the back of my head, and love him just like i usually do. But then i stop and think again, these things keep happening, and i'm nothing but a spectator in this mess, my mom has to deal with most of it. And she's so strong about everything, she always tells me: Pray, God will help you. And i'm here ranting ranting ranting, whereas she doesn't even need to rant. She just...Prays. And maybe i'm being really bitchy, complaining about my dad like this, in such a public medium, but really, i don't think i can put this anger anywhere else. It's so....infuriating. I think the worse part is that, my friend seems to act like that too. I love him because he's a good friend to me, but he has the whole "what's life without flirting" thing going on, and i want to change that about him. I don't want him to end up like that. He may end up like my dad. He just may. And what a disaster that'd be, wouldn't it? Do people think that i'm horrible because i complain about my parents? Do they? I mean, i dislike it when other people complain about their parents being annoying, but this to me, is really too, too much. I mean, does everybody's dad act like that? Okay, enough said. This doesn't reflect well on either me or my dad. I think i'll censor the last post. Or something.. Or not. (added on 16march2011) I deleted the last post, heh. |
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