MY EXAMS ARE FUCKING TOMORROW AND ALL I WANT TO DO IS CRY AND CRY AND CRY AND CRY AND CRY AND CRY AND CRY AND CRY AND CRY AND CRY AND CRY AND CRY AND CRY AND CRY AND CRY AND CRY AND CRY AND CRY AND CRY AND CRY AND CRY AND CRY AND CRY AND CRY AND CRY AND CRY AND CRY AND CRY AND CRY AND CRY AND CRY AND CRY AND CRY AND CRY AND CRY AND CRY AND CRY AND CRY AND CRY AND CRY AND CRY AND CRY AND CRY AND CRY AND CRY AND CRY AND CRY AND CRY AND CRY AND CRY AND CRY AND CRY AND CRY AND CRY AND CRY AND CRY AND CRY AND CRY AND CRY AND CRY AND CRY AND CRY AND CRY AND CRY AND CRY AND CRY AND CRY AND CRY AND CRY AND CRY AND CRY AND CRY AND CRY AND CRY AND CRY AND CRY AND CRY AND CRY AND CRY AND CRY AND CRY AND CRY AND CRY AND CRY AND CRY AND CRY AND CRY AND CRY AND CRY AND CRY AND CRY AND CRY AND CRY AND CRY AND CRY AND CRY AND CRY AND CRY AND CRY AND CRY AND CRY AND CRY AND CRY AND CRY AND CRY AND CRY AND CRY AND CRY AND CRY AND CRY AND CRY AND CRY AND CRY AND CRY AND CRY AND CRY AND CRY AND CRY AND CRY AND CRY AND CRY AND CRY AND CRY AND CRY AND CRY AND CRY AND CRY AND CRY AND CRY AND CRY AND CRY AND CRY AND CRY AND CRY AND CRY AND CRY AND CRY AND CRY AND CRY AND CRY AND CRY AND CRY AND CRY AND CRY AND CRY AND CRY AND CRY and then maybe at the end, i'll die.

I'm so scared now.
I want my A1 or A2 so badly, but i look at myself,
and i look at all the people around me trying just as hard, if not harder.
And inside i know,
that i'm just going to let everyone else down again.
It's almost like there's no way i cannot Not let them down.

And thanks to Edward,
i also feel very discouraged now.

I'm prepared to fail.
I'm prepared to do utterly horribly.

I'm also probably having some kind of internal hormonal surge, as well as having imminent bipolar disorder now.