MY FIRST RED CROSS MEETING AS an NCO.
Scary much??
And i have to teach the NEW BATCH of secthrees first aid!
I hope i don't teach the wrong thing!! :P

Oh and anyway, today was a totally NOT PRODUCTIVE day.
i feel angry with myself.
How can i hardly do any studying!
School was good today (:
Didn't really sleep in any lessons, whee!~ ♪
i'm getting better at staying awake!!
And it's so funny, Mrs Lee asked us to do the emath assignment for homework which i've already finished before the holidays. How funny... (:

OKAY, I HAVE TO SLEEP.
Daddy just gave me a shock, gosh..

Labels: 3gy, scrcy

First day of school wasn't bad you know.
Today wasn't bad either.. (:

I miss my phone though.. :S
Oh well...

I have been recently stopping my juniors from calling me "ma'am" because i feel as if i'm not ready to accept the role as their nco yet.
I still feel like THE SECTHREE in the unit. Not an nco. Oh no...
But guess what, i'm teaching the NEW SECTHREES first aid this thursday.
Well, better get used to them calling me that then.
(UNLIKELY.)

Labels: scrcy

My orientation(or game group) group was super fun (:
Samuel the year 1 YL looked like Russell from Up the movie, so we called him Russell. Hahaha!
There was this game and we had to built a tower, then we ran out of time, so we covered Russell in newspaper from head to toe. Super Hilarious! (:
I think this camp was not as emotionally/physically challenging as the last one, but heck, it's church camp, so it was still awesome (:
We ended up splitting the girl's dorm into two rooms because the one we were all suppose to be in, was stinky. Hahah.
I bullied Nigel & Jer & Matthew (:
& I HUGGED nigel and seow :D
& i hugged kim, mad, grace, ana, joanne, steph, nikki, nicoleS and other people too! LOL (:


all of our side in the room! (minus hazel who went off somewhere..)

crazy ♥

t-rex ♥

nicole + nicole + me (:

spazzed roomies (:

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Hahaha!
Off to church camp tomorrow! (:
A lil excited because i'm gonna see KIMBERLY and JEREMY and NICOLE(S) ! (:
maddie & rach & joanne too! :D
The joy of seeing friends... WHEE!!
But i feel like i don't want to go because it's the last few days of the holidays. Dayum...
OH WELL.
(:

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I think there was some show on channel 5 about the Wondergirls, and it just happened that i was talking to Matt at that exact moment. I don't even remember what we were talking about, but Matt suddenly went, "Oh cool, they can speak english?"
"Duh! Why wouldn't they be able to speak english?"
"I don't know... 'Cause they're japanese?"
"They're not japanese!! They're KOREAN! ohmygosh, you epic fail matt!"
"GAH, shuddup!"
Hahaha, then i spent the rest of the call telling him how fail he was. (:
He said that if i post this on my blog, he will kill me.
HEY MATTHEW, I AM WAITING TO DIE :D
[come and kill me, if you dare!]

hahaha, so hilarious! :D

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i've done enough email hacking for one night! :P
SORRY KOR (ps. please don't kill me!)

Rain rain go away!
Don't spoil my fun today!
(:

m:"Carolyn, close your eyes for one second, i wanna see something" (we were on Jer's youtube pg, and i wanted to see the channel comments...)
C:"you better not be watching porn"
m:"I AM NOT WATCHING PORN LA"
C:"the internet is dangerous, be careful of what you see. I know your watching porn!"
m:"I'm not la! I'm not that gross"
C:(walks out of room and stands behind glass door.)

HAHA EPIC.
fine, maybe it doesn't sound funny, but it is, okay!
And for the record, i really wasn't watching porn -.-
I was on Jer's youtube. There is no porn on his youtube. haha.
Oh gosh, my sis is so funny (:

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I AM SO ANGRY.

click to enlarge image.

read what Cameron said.
like, the two orange sentences together.
sheesh.

And to think i was added into that conversation to, what... spectate? GOSH.

Labels: church, convo, msn

I like you because you snatch all my apple candy haha. I like you for being there for me whenever I need someone to talk to. I like you because you make me feel like a useful person when I am not. I like you because you have a facebook, alotta friends and that you always share stuff with me. I like you because you're gonna join my choir soon haa and that you're the only person who post stuff on my fb wall. I like you because you always mention me in your blog. I like you because you talk to me after cat class and you encouraged me to go for confession. I like you because you have a nice personality and make ppl comfortable around you. I like you because you laugh at my lame jokes and you think that my vio skills are good. I like you because you are a great friend to have. I like you and your long letters that you send. I like your animal paper clips haha. I like you cause you've a piano at home and you like music like me too! I like you for being kind to all of your friends including me. I like you cause we are friends who do not owe each other anything. I like you cause you think that I have changed you for good. I like you because you're damn tall and look nice in specs and a white shirt. I like you because you always spam my phone when I am overseas. I like you because you make me think that I am not a bad or stupid person. I like you because you don't like soccer alot too! I like you because you thought of me and bought me stuff when you were in uk. I like you because you are the only friend I have in oovvoo and YouTube. I like you because you always encourage me to do things. I like you for keeping my innermost secrets. I like you because I can share with you everything under the sun!!! :)

Completely unabridged and in original form.
Copied from my phone inbox.
Sent to me by my Korkor -sorry, i know you hate it when i call you that ;D- on the 21st of June 2010 at 18:26.

The line in pinkish red and italics is my favourite. Hahaha (:

[Typing this out is just as tiring as playing czardas, brother!! haha.
and i think you meant THE white shirt, not just A white shirt, lol!]

THANKS BROTHER (:

LONDON.
BRISTOL.
BATH.
DALE FORT.

wicked.

WHY DID THE TRIP HAVE TO CHANGE ME SO MUCH?
omg, i miss everything. ):
can i go live there please?
i will get my A1s and go to jc and get more As and then i will fly off to study in Oxford University!
i like that plan very much.
Fionna shall come with me! Wheehee! :D

Mommy says studying there is good.
Oh yes, i almost left out, i have ta get a scholarship if i wanna study there.
I WILL I WILL I WILL!!

You know what?
Wicked is officially my favourite musical of all time.
I keep blasting the songs.
So super nice!
"For Good", "No Good Deed", and "Defying Gravity" are my favourites! (:

When i go back there!
I WILL go to the Apollo Victoria Theatre and watch Wicked again.
and i will go to Her Majesty's Theatre and watch Phantom of the Opera.
AHH! ALL THIS IS MAKING MY HEAD SPIN WITH HAPPINESS :D

okay, time to go back to emath.
Anyone care to explain trigonometry to me?

Labels: UK trip

Don't dream too far,
don't lose sight of who you are. ♪

i'm gonna finish it soon because this is something i'm confident i can do well.
ONE THING i can do well, and it isn't graded. Ugh!
Oh gosh, gotta do more emaths now!
And i still haven't blogged about the trip, oh dear, oh dear, oh deary me!

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& even if all of you gang up against me,
i'm just going to walk away from it all.
The truth is: i don't care.

...blog about my trip to the UK soon.

Gosh, it was so wonderful. (:

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i love idina menzel & kristin chenoweth's voice!
all who don't have the Wicked Broadway CD; BE JEALOUS!
wahaha!

(:

[don't bother asking to rip songs off my cd because unless i've already said yes, the answer is no. HAHA. or maybe if i'm nice i'll say yes. HA.]

why can't my mom let me have tuition at 4pm tomorrow ?
i am suffering from jet lag but i have to force myself to sleep or i'll be tired during tuition and tuition's in the morning tomorrow.
OH GOSH.

STUPID WAKE.

Sometimes i feel that i have failed you as a friend.
I'm sorry.

i miss the UK.
It's just so very ironic how on the 15th i was whining about our flight delay because i wanted to come home.
I was delusioned.
The people who i thought would miss me, didn't.
They had an awesometastic time without me.

I wish someone had missed me.

I feel like over there in the UK, everything was so wonderful and fun.
But we have to come back down to reality. A reality where i don't want to be.

Suppose to go for redcross standardisation tomor. I'm so tired, i'm not going.
(Anyway, i'm not around for POC so what difference does that make?)

Dear Kimberly, Jeremy, Matthew.

I think that we should stop talking because i'm a pretty lousy friend.
And because i piss you'll off most of the times.
Idon't feel like i can trust any of you'll anymore.
I don't think i can trust anyone.

wonder when you'll will read it, hm.
No one reads this bloody blog anyway.

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i heard that SJI is also leaving for the same UK trip now!
As in, they'll probably be on the same plane as us!!
GAH. Hope they're nice.

okay, really gotta go now!
BYE LOVES♥

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Heyo!
Time flies!! (:

I'm leaving the house for the airport in about 3 minutes!! :D
I'm so excited to be going to the UK! (:

The plane leaves at 1:50am!
Gosh.
Because we are transferring flight, we have a total travelling time of 15 hours!
Woah...

We're reaching London at about 7am in the morning, and we'll have to take a 5 hour bus ride to Wales right after that. I think i'll be tired. Oh well... (:

I won't be able to blog while i'm there because we are not allowed to bring our laptops. Pooey! ):
AND MY LUGGAGE IS SUPER HUGE. Well, as compared to the one i bring on my normal 7 day holidays, IT IS GIGAMASSIVANTIC! :O (i combined gigatic and massive to form that word, hehe!)

Hi korkor, if you're reading this. I will miss you ):
& Hi matt, you lousy friend, hahaha. I will miss you too ):
& Kimberly, i will miss you ): (it's self explanatory, cos we're best friends!)
& Nicole Chin, happy birthday in case i am unable to wish you! :P

NOTE: it is not guaranteed that i will be buying things back for everybody as i have a budget and my mommy says that i should only buy for my SUPER CLOSE friends. (:
[Sorry to everyone else who asked cos it's unlikely i'll get you something :P]

Okay.
This blog is gonna be pretty dead for awhile.
Oh well, TOODLES!
(Daddy says oscar mike nowwww! :D)

♥ you korkor, and kim (:
miss you both the most ):

Labels: church, UK trip

I talked to Maddie, Grace, Nat Yap and Gretel after mass.
Heehee! (:
Everybody gave me a hug, yay! :D

& Mads gave me ideas on where to buy my confi dress from, hahaha :D
She's jealous i'm going to stratford :P
Grace sounded a lil shocked that i'm going for about 2 weeks.
Haha.

Oh, ladeelalalala ♪

I hope I don't forget to bring anything...
OKAY! BACK TO PACKING! (:

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That's where' i'll be in approximately the next 48 hours! (:
(Includes flying time :P)
NEXT TO THE COAST!! :D
Hahaha.
Excited, excited, excited! (:

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Whee!
I'll be leaving for London in about 25 hours!
I'm quite excited! :D

Can't wait, can't wait, can't wait!

It'll be Cheryl's birthday when i get back.
HEEHEE!
OH LOOK! YI LING'S BIRTHDAY IN A FEW MINUTES!! :D

Ah, wonder if i got time to post before i leave tomorrow (:
Heehe!

♥

Labels: UK trip

Super fun :D
We played with photobooth on the mac! heehee (:

Since facebook is very mean and refuses to upload my photos.
I shall put some here! (:

open house 2010! (:

maddie & me. SO LONG AGO ♥

the three musketeers :D

{prologue} & their new moon posters. (Yi Ling loves them. haha!)

Squash b'div match! :D
Hahaha, ashley's face is damn funny :S

I miss those times, hm.. (:
♥

Labels: 3gy, levelmates♥, mafia gang, scrcy

i miss our ex-ncos.
SPOT ME :D
hahaha.

sometimes i hate it,
sometimes i love it.
But mostly,
this was the best mistake i've ever made.
And i've still got regrets.
but they're slowly diminishing.

Labels: levelmates♥, mafia gang, scrcy

The last post wasn't so nice.
quite mean of me...

Well! Daddy changed SGD to UK£ for me! :D
And i've almost finished packing.
Whee!
I can't wait to land in UK.

Some people told me that my pencil case is like a bookshop.
Now, they can say that i'm bringing so much food, its like a supermarket.
Hahaha! :D

Okay lol.
Uploading and trasferring pics.
I can't wait, i can't wait, i can't wait! :D

Labels: UK trip

Thank you Nads for everything yesterday! ♥
& Matt too! (:
Hahaha.

I am amazed at myself.
I slept in most lessons except for emath!
Ms Lim totally rocks.
I WANT TO CHANGE TO HER CLASS!! :D

& i'm so happy.
Tomorrow is friday!!
Last day of school! WHEE!
And only 3 hours worth of lessons! YES! :D

& UK Trip on Sunday!
Whee! (:

Labels: 3gy, UK trip

I need to start posting happy posts soon.
I hate being angry.
KorKor is gonna read this and get worried.
Oh dearie me..

Recently, or well, in the last couple of weeks and months,
my levelmates have been telling me to "stop being close to the juniors."
I think the rationale for saying this is because our level is going to step up soon.

No offence to them, but i don't find anything wrong with being close to the juniors.
I feel that having a bond with juniors (and seniors) can actually help.
Especially if there are disagreements between the levels.
Don't tell me that in the future you want the juniors to be bitching about us because they're unhappy and none of them can convey it to us.
BEEN THERE, DONE THAT.
It didn't change anything. (Right my dear levelmates?)

What if though, what if, ONE or TWO juniors could tell us what was wrong? Wouldn't that be beneficial in that we could both see how our levels have reacted and make the necessary amendments?

DONT TELL ME THAT YOU THINK OUR LEVEL IS GONNA BE PERFECT WHEN WE STEP UP BECAUSE IT ISN'T. (no level, and nobody, is perfect.)

Is our cca, the only cca where you can't be close to your juniors and seniors?
Becasue FK i'm changing that, and no one. NO ONE. Can stop me.

Labels: levelmates♥, scrcy

Let's just get this clear.
I AM NOT A CRAZY MAD PSYCHOTIC GIRL who needs to go to IMH.
I have problems and i blog about them.
AND, I DONT NEED to see a counselor.
They wouldn't be able to help me, and i know.
Third, if you distance yourself away from me because you've read the last post.
By all means, go ahead.
If you don't want me in your life, i don't want you in mine too.

Toodles!






korkor, i wish you were here.

I can't blog properly because i know that there are people stalking my blog and there are people who don't bother to tag. THAT IS MEAN.
IF YOU COME AND READ IT YOU SHOULD TAG.
ARGH ):
tumblr is so much safer.
Why does my dad have to follow me on twitter?
I'm gonna start unfriending people on facebook.
JUST BECAUSE I KNOW YOU DOES NOT MAKE US FRIENDS, JUST TO LET YOU KNOW.
eff, i'm in such a bad mood now!
Can't wait till i learn how to swear in cantonese. Muahahaha!

Can't wait till the 17th when i get back from UK and KorKor is around.
Can't wait, can't wait, can't wait.

I hate feeling so shitty ):
I hate having to study soo hard during the first week of hols):
I hate having to meet everybody's expectations ):
I hate being lectured about not having good attitude):
I hate being me.

YOU KNOW WHAT,
daddy lectured me this morning again.
It was the usual; you're not studying hard enough, you're doing lousy, you'll have no future, you're gonna flunk your o levels, you're gonna go to a shit school. OH WAIT. I CANT GO TO A SHIT SCHOOL. BECAUSE IF I DON'T GET 6 POINTS FOR MY FCKING O LEVELS, I WONT EVEN BE STUDYING ANYMORE. I'LL HAVE TO DROP OUT BECAUSE MY DAD SAYS THAT ITS A WASTE OF A MONEY. ANYONE WHO GOES TO POLY MUST BE THAT STUPID, RIGHT? Fck la. Poly doesn't even suck that bad.

And if i tell anyone that, they'll be like "no la, your parents aren't serious, they just want you to do well." THE NEXT TIME SOMEONE SAYS THAT I'M GONNA SAY "SHUT THE FCK UP". IF YOU DON'T KNOW MY PARENTS, DON'T MAKE THESE KIND OF COMMENTS.

Chloe understands what it's like.
But she's still able to dsa.
I can't.

Because, i'm in a STUPID FCK CCA which probably doesn't exist in JC. (if i even go there) So damn, because all i can do is save the man on the street who has a sudden heart attack and save people with fractures and sprains and save people who've fainted.
NO OFFENCE TO ANYONE, -especially to the ncos since some of them read this- BUT I REALLY DON'T WANT TO SAVE ANYONE'S LIFE. It's not being selfish okay. I just don't.
I don't like blood. It's not disgusting or gruesome or make me want to puke. I'm fine with it. I just don't want to save someone else because i'm just NOT THAT KIND.
Or maybe i am but i'm too angry now so i shall just say that i'm not.
HMPH.


OH FCK MY ECZEMA GOT WORST AND MY SCARS ARE GETTING INFLAMED.
FCK FCK FCK.
YES, I GET ECZEMA WHEN I'M STRESSED.
I. AM. STRESSED.
oh yes, and for everyone out there who thinks your life is worse, DONT BOTHER COMPARING.
I don't care if your life is really worse than mine because i'm finding it so hard to get through each day just thinking about the fact that i may not even be able to go to JC after Os. Or poly for that matter. Your life could really be worse but i don't care. Mine's as bad as it is already.

You know what else i do when i'm stressed?
(Only highlight the following paragraph if you're very very sure it will not disgust you. If you spread rumours about this, i will find out.)
Sometimes i slash. But not really anymore. It really isn't that bad. I have a secret weapon and it's not a knife because the knife is painful and i didn't even try that before. Ha. ha. ha.
And sometimes when i'm stressed, i pretend to be someone i'm not. I go crazy. I act psychotic. I talk to imaginary people, then i scream and shout and throw things all over the place. The last time this happened, my room was covered in paper ALL OVER, it looked like it was snowing. I talk to myself. I laugh the way a crazy person would. I think about death out loud and sometimes its hilarious watching people around me freak out. I start to shake violently and i end up having spasms on the floor. Or, i'd just sit on the rooftop in my pajamas and cry and cry and cry and cry and cry. I sound like i belong in woodbridge. But throughout this whole thing, i'm conscious of what i'm doing. I do it On Purpose. If you're freaked out now, then too bad. I warned you that it'd be weird and freaky. So now you know. But i only act psychotic when i'm very stressed. It helps, you know...

Okay, i feel better after blogging.
I wish my korkor was here.
Then i could talk to him and it'd be easier for me to get over all this shit.

Sometimes i just wish i could die.
It's so hard.
But we just gotta keep trying.

And trying.




And trying.

Sometimes goodbye,
though it hurts in your heart,
is the only way for you and me ♫

I want someone to fall in love with the way I laugh and with my smile. I want someone to listen to me whenever i feel down. Someone who will be there for me and tell me it's gonna be alright. I want someone who loves me and at least holds me like they do. I only want all these, if i can have it with you.♥

Omygosh, school was so fun (:
I slept in SS without doing any head-jerking!
(Awesome! I can be as still as the altar boys now, heehee! The skill has been acquired! :D)

Then English was super funny cos Mrs Lim kept playing this video and the female protagonist kept singing at random moments, and the male protagonist also kept singing at random moments.
Then she fast-forwarded the video and they ended up singing together.
It was super gross cos the female protagonist was older than the male protagonist.
EEYER, cougar.

The song they kept singing was like " now-now-now-now-now-smthsmthsmthsmth-aloneeeeeee~"
OHOH! And the female protagonist seemed super psychotic cos she kept saying "goodmorning" to everybody in the first part of the video, in a super chirpy and happy voice too!
Some of us in the LT started mimicking her. It was super hilarious! (:

Anna and I also started singing hi-5 songs halfway during lecture!
And JieJie joined in. It was super fun! :D
We all figured out that it was from hi-5 that we learnt how to spell "opposite!"
(You know, they had that song; O-P-P-O-S-I-T-E! )

Then recess with Nikki & Ashley.
Gosh, i realised how funny the 3 of us looked.
WE ALL LOOK LIKE STICKS. Hahah.
And Nikki is very much like Ashley, they're both quite blur and innocent sometimes.
Haha (:

UBD PROPOSAL FOR LIT! (:
Su-lin, Ashley and I just kept discussing physics concept.
I have officially forgotten ALL my physics laws. (Hooray! :D)

Then lunched with Ashley (:
And i bought my EYELASH CURLER from Sasa!
Yay! (:
(It makes a difference when you put on your mascara, seriously!)

Ran errands after lunch, and i was afraid i'd be late for dental so i practically ran around ion -.-
And Andrea said that she saw me, but i didn't see her!! :p

I tell you, i was damn pissed after dental okay!
She suddenly wanted to fix my braces for me, then i ended up being there for like two and a half hours! It ended at 6pm when my appointment was at 3.30pm. I'm super annoyed!
I could have gone home and completed my Social Studies Essay!!! ):

Plus, since she fixed my braces, i couldn't eat until 2 hours later.
That's 8pm!! ): I don't like eating late!!
Also, because my braces got fixed, i can't chew on stuff for about a few days or i'll break it again! :S

Oh, whatever!

It was drizzling when i walked to the bus stop.
I don't know why people bothered taking out their umbrellas...
The drizzle wasn't that bad.

Okay yeah, so i walk walk walked to the back of ion, then i was gonna cross the road, and suddenly this BMW tries to overtake the truck and turn into the ion carpark, but there's not much space to turn, so the care tire hits the kerb and it makes a screechy sound and everyone stares at the car. Haha!
You know what the funniest part was?
I was gonna cross the road. So everything happened just before i stepped out onto the cross-walk. And this lady looked damn happy and was blabbering away to her friend on the phone; "Oh! This BMW tried to overtake the lorry cos it tried to go into the ion carpark, then the tire hit the kerb!.." I was like telling myself, wow, nice recount. I think it was funny, she looked so happy when talking about it. LOL?

I got home really quick.
YAY FOR FAST BUSES! (:

I think Daddy's buying the new pokemon game for me tomorrow! (:

& I can't wait for UK trip, and when i'm there, i can't wait to be BACK!
I miss my brother so damn much ):
Why did he have to fly off to Shanghai!!

My studying has been pretty productive.
I feel proud of myself.
I'm a little sad that i'm not on schedule now.
STUPID DENTAL APPOINTMENT ):

Kim's birthday on wednesday!! ♥
:D


okay, gonna sleep!
nighty night world!

PS. my inner thoughts seem to always end up on tumblr. Hm, wonder why... (:

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