So yes, now i'm 16.

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you may not understand what this is,
and you may think this is like backfiring, but really.
Just because you don't feel the way i do,
doesn't make me wrong.







"Contrary to the accepted code of conduct of a profession"
WHAT IS THE ACCEPTABLE CODE OF CONDUCT?
define this for me, first.
Then, you can talk to me about being unprofessional.

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Hahaha, nothing much happened.
TUITION WAS PRODUCTIVE :D
Hahaha.
Then studied an hour of bio! :>

Went for mass, fell asleep :S
Sort of...

Saw Andrea walking into my condo when coming back from church. Don't know if she saw me cause i was in the car. Hahaha.
Oh wells...
Anyway! (:
I'm gonna finish up my 3 chapters of bio tonight!
AND THEN I WILL NOT FEEL GUILTY TOMORROW! (:

Extra lessons in school on tuesday, wednesday AND thursday.
Really hate my life.
It isn't even my O's year yet! Urgh!
Okay, i'm getting fed up thinking.

YES, SCRCY IS NOW A PAIN.
I HOPE YOU SEE THIS CAROLYN Ma'am!
Haha. If you didn't understand what i meant from my previous soliloquys and long confusing poems, in 6 short words, that is what i meant.
Ha.

i hope kim, grace & nicole chin cheer me up.
I'm really starting to hate school, and it's not LAN's fault.
Hahahaha.
Some kind of leader you are, pffft!

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ever wondered why our juniors don't have the red cross spirit?
like how we used to all feel this pull to come for red cross every week even though we are sometimes sick, how we don't want to be casualties and take part in punishments even though we are not 100% well. How easy it was for us to look up to and respect our seniors. It was something that they didn't have to ask of us, do you remember?
what about now?

why do you think they don't have the red cross spirit?
who is leading them now?
do we have the red cross spirit?

After all the sombre passing of roles from one batch to another, didn't it feel like something was amiss. As if something that belonged to the previous batch had left with them. Doesn't it feel that way?

Is it really the juniors fault for not knowing how to love red cross?
Or is it because, we haven't been showing them...

I myself, even as a senior now, don't feel the need to be there for them.
But still i drag myself there every single thursday, because i've seen a difference in a few of them, a difference strong enough to remind me of how much fun all this used to be.

Something is missing.
This cca is just a cca.
There's no spirit of love for it anymore.

Remember how in sec1, we blamed ourselves for the dismiss of punishments which left our seniors in tears, how we were afraid to lose the bond from within our level due this minor setback, do you remember?
I complained that we could have been like the guides without punishments, but then, i was wrong.

The guides have a love for their cca, for what they do.
What about us?

We are worse than them.
Clearly.

If we can't show the juniors how to love red cross, how can they love it too?
Just by saying it out loud, and acknowledging that they don't have a love for it doesn't change anything.

You know what else.
We, as a level, have no bond.
You might say i'm wrong, and that's fine with me.
But really, look at yourselves, the way we treat each other.
Tell me, there's no cooperation and love in this level, not anymore.
There used to be.


What happened to it?

(haha, now i shall wait, for someone to tell me, "Jacq, take that post down, it's not right of you to post things like that on your blog". Ha. Ha. I shall wait in all jaded cynicism there is, for the hypocrite to throw these words upon me. It's like whipping someone with a feather. Nothing, no...nothing at all.)

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our board will look awesome,
just you wait and see...
THE NCOS HAVE BEEN HARD AT WORK!! (:

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Was totally awesome!(:
Here are some pics.
I'm tired to blog. Heehee!


BIEBER with kimberlyyyy (:

the darling scrcy sectwos ♥

Yi Ling , I, Chloe ma'am ! (:

Dancers ♥

HAHA, Yi Ling and I look great. YEAH :D

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Yeah, scary stuff today.
Too much tension.
It did go much better than expected though.
I'm happy because even though our whole level agreed that I have an attitude problem AND bi-polar, they all said i was a very good friend, and a really empathetic one too (:
Ego boost!!

Anyway, besides that, i suppose i still had a pretty good day.
GUESS WHAT CAME OUT FOR HISTORY TEST!!!!!
POLICY OF APPEASEMENT!!! YAY!!! (:
I was so darn happy okay! We did a practice essay on that EXACT topic.
Mrs Koh even reminded us that we must have at least a paragraph on agreeing and disagreeing to get L4 !!! :D
I hope I can at least get an L4!
I feel like i'm saved (:
Please please please please pleas please please let me pass my history test well! (fingers crossed!)

We got chinese test results back today!
I PASSED!!!! (:
I am so happy! Studying pays off. I know you can't really study for mcq chinese comprehension, but Wang laoshi taught me all the methods on how to get my answers correct, 'cause sometimes they re-phrase it to make it tricky. FOR ONCE...FOR ONCE... I actually got almost all of the comprehension mcq correct!! (:
I only got one question wrong!
I passed the cloze passage section too! For once, i managed to get 5 out of 10 correct. I PASSED THAT SECTION (:
I'm so happy.
19/30. I PASSED I PASSED I PASSED!!!!!
(:

Chinese really isn't that bad, okay! (:
I think laoshi was happy with me, because she didn't scold me when i talked to Chloe today. (:
I aspire to get my A1 for Chinese in May/June next year! :D

English was boringgggggg.
I don't even hate our new teacher because she's nice.
She's just...BORING.
But nevermind, i think i'll survive... Ugh, hopefully...
& increase the B3 to an A1!

OH YEAH, i forgot to add.
Joey took part in some exchange programme in June, and now there's this Japan exchange student in our class. I think her name's Fumika. (:
She's really nice, it's just a little sad that we can't really talk to her because she doesn't know a lot of english.. Eh :p
AND SHE'S ON HER SCHOOL'S TEAM FOR VOLLEYBALL.
Do you have any idea how lousy we felt during pe today?
(We're playing volleyball for pe now.)
HER OVERHAND SERVE IS AWESOME. OMGSKLJFODJFDLKFNSL!
Seriously...
I cannot serve like that for nuts! :S

We were suppose to take the "serving" part of the volleyball skill test today, but knowing our class, we definitely wouldn't all be able to take the test.
So some of us decided to play a game of volleyball! (:
Fumika played with us, so it was so much more awesome! She serves really well!!! :D
The interesting game went across court, hahahah! :D
awesome, awesome, awesome!

Oh yes, we also got our emaths test back.
UGH, Don't ask what i got.
Didn't do well :/

SHALALALA.
Time to live a little and get off the com.
(:

Guess who called me two days ago? ♥
Guess who called me yesterday? ♥
Guess who's gonna call me today? ♥

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Spa's real soon... GOSH.
Poc dinner this saturday and some of my favourite ex-ncos won't be coming. ARGH ):
How can this be??

I talked to Ale today(:
She knows what Nikki & I have been through.
Wonder when she'll start to give up.
Been there, done that. Uh.

AND SOMEONE REMOVED THE MASKING TAPE THAT I PASTED ON THE RC ROOM TABLE. THE ONE THAT HAD THE SPECIAL "S__W" WORD ON IT, WHAT IS THIS?
i feel so insulted ):

Kay, i was happy in CE today with Clar, Fionna, Anna and Ale.
We talked total bullcrap and laughed like crazyyy (;

I don't know what else to say.
It was an OKAY-ish day.
It wasn't a chinese block test today -.-
It was just a one period chinese test and it was mcq. Freaking easy (:
Wang Lao Shi has trained me well, heehee! I hope i get quite high!!! :D

MY AIM IS TO GET A1 FOR CHINESE O LEVELS, i feel so confident and happy doing chinese. YAY FOR MO XIE (:
no sarcasm intended!

Oh gosh, hahaha, my lit unseen is pretty good!!! Better than the MSND one, ugh ):
Gotta work work work harder!!

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My baby (:

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The essence of photography;
to bring back memories♥

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Thank you Su-lin for letting me Not teach the sec3s first aid today!! (:
Yay, had no lesson to teach, so i extra-ed in the other ncos's lessons. Heehee!

Guet was suppose to teach combined RCV, then Yi Ling, Sarah and I wen to extra (:
Then we played a game where they had to write down whoever's name we gave them that was in the hierachy.
I'm proud of Adeline & Kaisah because they can spell my full name! ♥
ROCHELLE IS A BAD GIRL. SHE DIDN'T KNOW THAT I WAS 8TH-IN-COMMAND ! ):
[heart break, lol.]
And Rochelle wrote that Yi Ling was the Discipline Mistress. TSK!

So after a while, we played charades instead (:
The cadets had to act out either another cadet or an nco.
You know how they acted as Marsya ? They did the push-up-specs-with-one-hand-thing.
hahaha. That really is a very Marsya trait though...
Shannon acted as Yi Ling. She just kept quiet. And they took a really long time to get it. You know what else? Rochelle said that she was acting like Iswarya. Wtheck?...
Jessica had to imitate me. I can't remember what she did. OH I KNOW, she copied what i was doing and crossed her hands.

Then after all the laughing of imitating the ncos and other cadets, the sec3s had to go for evac.
Then Yi Ling told me to entertain them while she accreded some people. Why do i always have to entertain people, SERIOUSLY? hahahah.
Anyway, the sec3s suggested that we did charades of ex-ncos and ex-ex-ncos. Was pretty fun.
Xuan Yi did charades of me again. hahaha. I love making them do that, they can't imitate me, mwahahah!
But the first thing out of Xuan Yi's mouth made me go wtf.
She copied me and crossed her arms (omg, i really don't do that a lot kay...) and then she was like, "I love MattSeow". Everyone was like going "what?" and i heard her say "Miselle" or something like that, until Yi Ling who was sitting there at the table marking Chen Yi's evac paper told me what that was. I was like "WTF!" then i dragged Xuan Yi across the room and scolded her. Well, more like threatened her to die if she ever said it again. She says she knows cause she reads my blog.
I BET YOU'RE READING THIS NOW, TAN XUAN YI.
Wtheck kay..

What Xuan Yi said is like total bullcrap or else i wouldn't even write it down here!
If you want to know who Matt is, ASK ME. That's all i'll say.
Stupid Tan Xuan Yi...

Talked to the sec2 casualties when the rest of their level had footdrill.
I threatened Nicole Chloe Thomas.
HAHA. (:

Then i volunteered to be casualty for the people practicing evac gold.
They carried me over the obstacle on a stretcher, the obstacle of which was two canteen tables stacked over each other.
Amanda Soo was like telling me, "Don't scream okay!"
And then i immediately covered my mouth with my hands. Then she laughed at me.
I think she was shaking when they all brought me to shoulder level though. Either that or i was shaking. When they brough the stretcher down from the other side of the table, my head hit it ):
It did tilt at times though, but it was still really stable.
Good job levelmates! ♥ (Even though i was shaking when i got off the stretcher and never wanted to do it again. I still feel scared thinking about it.)

Had a nice convo with Maryam on the bus, heehee (:

And now, i'm gonna do my timetable! :D
I realised i didn't write down my feelings again.
Weird...
Well, i was pretty mood-swingy throughout the day :S
Sorry to a lot of people ! :P
I felt really happy in Red Cross today.
Guess now i understand what the ex-ncos meant when they said that SCRCY was like a slice of happiness through a long arduous day.
Time's gonna fly, and soon, it'll all be over.
I'd better start cherishing things...♥

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Dear LEVELMATES,

I'm sorry for all the times when my attitude has driven you guys up the wall. When i've had crazy mood swings and words came out of my mouth faster than i could think about what i was saying. Sorry if i've ever hurt you'll during any of these times. Thank you for also always supporting me and being there for me.
I hope you guys can forgive me.

With love,
Jacq

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First Red Cross meeting where i was OFFICIALLY an nco.
I think i've finally accepted that my juniors have the right to call me "ma'am" now.
It still seems a little odd though.
Thank God they haven't added the M word behind my name yet, that would be...weird.

We finally got the red cross room key after english lecture.
I was soo excited to finally be allowed to step into the room, and actually NOT get chased out.
That room, is Sacred.
Su-lin unlocked the door, and then.... We didn't know who should go in first. How stupid, so we stood outside deciding for a few seconds until we finally agreed that the Chairperson (aka Su-lin) would go in first. Then we all went in.
GOSH, IT WAS SO CLEAN, AND NICE, AND WONDERFUL (:
We all love the room (:
The ex-ncos left food behind for us, so nice right?

We kinda started going around the room and looking at everything inside it.
We've never really been allowed to sit in there and stone, until now.

I must say, we have SO MANY TROPHIES in the cupboard thingy thing.
It is awesome!
& we have a broken violin inside too! (sweet...)

Well, i tried teaching the (new) secthrees First Aid today.
I epicly screwed up and failed. It is awkward.
For both them and I.
I'm not used to standing there trying to figure and TEACH the difference between an Anaphylactic Shock and Normal Shock. (oh dear...)

I feel that everyone is still in post-poc mood. I wasn't even there during camp, which was when poc took place, and thus, did not get any chance to cry at all!
I felt a little sad today. Post-poc sadness!!

Anyway, today was a pretty good school day in general, considering i stayed awake in ALL LESSONS (:
(yay me!!)
I'm really proud of myself, kay!

I also got my book today!!
Wicked: The Life and Times of the Wicked Witch of the West
i am so happy! it arrived one day early! HOORAY! :D
Miranda told me she bought hers at Kino, but i couldn't find it there, so i bought mine from overseas and shipped it here! (:
Express shipping is SERIOUSLY expensive. Never do that unless totally desperate and in need of a book. (Or whatever you're shipping over.)
Miranda had previously warned me that it was quite disturbing at some parts in an adult sense.
I finally understood what she meant.
Its PG15. Hahahah! (Yea, i made that up ;p But seriously, it IS quite disturbing in a sick sense.)

Alright, there's a FULL LIT BLOCK TEST tomorrow!
I gotta go mug now. Wheehee! (:

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Since facebook is very mean and refuses to upload my photos.
I shall put some here! (:

open house 2010! (:

maddie & me. SO LONG AGO ♥

the three musketeers :D

{prologue} & their new moon posters. (Yi Ling loves them. haha!)

Squash b'div match! :D
Hahaha, ashley's face is damn funny :S

I miss those times, hm.. (:
♥

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i miss our ex-ncos.
SPOT ME :D
hahaha.

sometimes i hate it,
sometimes i love it.
But mostly,
this was the best mistake i've ever made.
And i've still got regrets.
but they're slowly diminishing.

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Recently, or well, in the last couple of weeks and months,
my levelmates have been telling me to "stop being close to the juniors."
I think the rationale for saying this is because our level is going to step up soon.

No offence to them, but i don't find anything wrong with being close to the juniors.
I feel that having a bond with juniors (and seniors) can actually help.
Especially if there are disagreements between the levels.
Don't tell me that in the future you want the juniors to be bitching about us because they're unhappy and none of them can convey it to us.
BEEN THERE, DONE THAT.
It didn't change anything. (Right my dear levelmates?)

What if though, what if, ONE or TWO juniors could tell us what was wrong? Wouldn't that be beneficial in that we could both see how our levels have reacted and make the necessary amendments?

DONT TELL ME THAT YOU THINK OUR LEVEL IS GONNA BE PERFECT WHEN WE STEP UP BECAUSE IT ISN'T. (no level, and nobody, is perfect.)

Is our cca, the only cca where you can't be close to your juniors and seniors?
Becasue FK i'm changing that, and no one. NO ONE. Can stop me.

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I'm proud of myself.
I did my chinese holiday homework and started on my maths assignments & holiday homework.
It has been such a productive day (:
I like this feeling of working hard and gaining something.
I should probably aim to feel like this more often.

Did you read Sumiko Tan's article in the Sunday Times Life! section ?
It's about success. I LOVE HER ARTICLES. :D

Oh anyway,
there's school tomorrow, because we have supplementary week, and i really really hope that i don't get more homework because my timetable is all nicely planned out and i don't want to add more school stuff to it!

Jeremy's gone.
I feel sad. One less friend to bug.
POOEY ):

Clar's also gone.
One less person to text nonsense too.
POOEY ):

And planning POC is like, hm... no idea how to phrase it.
But in my head, it's like: Omg must email levelmates! Must check the price of the stuff we plan to buy for ncos! Must collect money from levelmates! Must make everyone agree! Mustn't be too ex! Must plan Unit Song! (OH SHOOTS!) Must plan level song! Must make someone take over because i will not be here on day 3 and what if it lands on day 3 or june camp? Oh dayum i need someone to take over! Can my dear levelmates please reply my emails? Why do i only get replies from some people! Ah!! What songs to use for level song? What? So short? Cannot! Need more songs! Oh no! Why is everyone not replying? Can everyone reply faster? I Need suggestions here peopleeeee! Oh gosh, This is annoying! UGH!

Maria Lim booked me for friday! (:
I LOVE YOU MARIA.
Haha (:
She wants to watch The Last Song with me.
I heard that guys cried when they watched that.
Seems like it's almost gonna be a repeat of what happened when Maria watched Valentines' Day with me. Yeah, i cried. BECAUSE, it was too sweet :D
I hope Maria ends up crying too, IF we watch The Last Song.

Ah, time to go back to math (:
Hope tomorrow is a good day.
WHEEHEE (:

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(click to enlarge image)

Since when was my duty as F&B I/C to "ensure that meals are both nutritious and filling" ?
The "filling" part i can understand, but "nutritious" ?! :P
Er well, according to the aop plan, the food seems to be able to give you more of a sugar rush than to give you nutrition.

OOPSIES! Hahahaha! ;D

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I have so many things to do today! HMPH.
#1. Elearning chem & bio & math & english
#2. Finish writing Korkor a letter
#3. Design UK Trip 2010! jacket!
#4. Call Kow about our history project
#5. Make a list of clothes that i want to buy, if not, mommy won't let me buy any :S
#6. FINISH AMATH FILING AND HAND IT IN TOMOROW. (Mrs Lim is gonna hate me for life! hahaha! ;D )

If i don't get these done soon, i will be doomed.
UK jacket!! :P

despite all the shit, i shall stay positive and cheerful!
(who am i kidding?)
♥

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HEEHEE :D
So after the module, Marsya, Nadira, Su-lin and I went to ORCHARD! (: [where else?]
The whole purpose was to go there and get Su-lin her book on Modern World History from Kino, but we took so long to get there because of all our procrastination. Plus, i ended up buying more knock-knock stuff from taka. Eeyer ):
Waste money, but oh-well...
It was fun i suppose (:
We also walked to Zara @ Wheelock.
I NEED TO GO SHOPPING FOR CLOTHES BEFORE THEY ALL GET TAKEN BY OTHER PEOPLE! :O
heh..
Yeah, so now i really really wanna go buy clothes.
I finally figured out what my "style" is. It took me so long. Sheesh. I could've saved so much money! :P

& then i saw Datina at the bus stop. Hahah (:
She's lucky cause her bus came early, and it was raining really heavily uh.. :S

I got kinda drenched on the way home.
Ah well...
Today was pretty good! (:
I have to get started on my homework soon though! There's a whole mountain of it!! :P

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