And no, i'm not glad that i'm 16.

This whole "sweet sixteen" thing, is really just so darn overrated.

There was nothing sweet about my sixteenth birthday, let me tell you why:

1) I didn't really go out with people because everybody had exams around that period. Is it my fault that your exams are around my birthday? No. Oh yeah, but of course you know, studies > friends.

2) Besides the wonderful board that kim&grace gave me and the cute bottle that fi&ale gave me, nope, i didn't get anything from anyone else. (This doesn't include my parents and my aunts.)

3) I got my amath test back on my birthday itself, and yes, i failed, and yes, i was upset, and yes, i fucking cried on my birthday. But meh, this one i don't really think i can blame anyone for it, but still.

4) My levelmates didn't do much. Oh, now i sound like a demanding little kid, but really? They do stuff for Su, Diyana, Piramol, Ziwei, Nadira. Yes, maybe that square-thing they gave me with all the quotes inside was suppose to be a present, but compared to what they gave everyone else, i'm sorry, but i'm really prepared to shove that square-thing-with-quotes-inside back at your faces. Yes, i sound ungrateful, but i feel absolutely unloved. Now, how would that feel?

I mean, you said that you got everyone involved. Do i need to count the number of paper-quote things in there? There's hardly the number of 2 levels combined. And the Sports Day outing was suppose to be my sort-of my birthday celebration, and yet so many people were so sulky, tired and nonchalant about everything. Talk about infuriating?

You tell me you're my friend, you tell me you "love" me, you "care" about me.

Oh really?

Maybe i'm being petty to be annoyed over such small issues like these.

Maybe i'm being over-analytical and i should just be grateful for what i received because there were others who received even less.

But no, i'm upset.

Talk to me about it EXACTLY one month after my birthday, i'm still upset.

Where was this whole "Sweet Sixteen" thing everyone was talking about?

WHERE?

Why did i actually feel so sad on that day?

I feel very cynical now.

And i especially feel upset with my levelmates.

No offence, but i'm more "involved" in cca than piramol, and they did more for her than for me during her birthday.

IS THIS THE WORLD TRYING TO TELL ME THAT THEY HATE ME, BECAUSE YOU KNOW, YOU DID A REALLY GOOD JOB.

Oh, and thanks to all the people who texted me or fb wall-posted me that day. I appreciate your wishes, (the fb ones significantly less so, because probably people saw other people posting and then remembered), but yes. Thanku.

I'm not an ungrateful bitch, really.

I'm not materialistic either.

But i'm disappointed and upset.

(So yes, if you've been waiting for my birthday post, here it is. I felt really like crap that day, so yes, now you know. Feel free to judge me.)

We watched two movies: 27 dresses and Bride Wars.

And, they laughed at me because i cried during the sad part of BW.

So expected, pfft. They think that me being emotional is very hilarious. Heh..

Work wasn't exactly the most productive, but hey, at least i still got my chinese done in the end.

Ale & I also webcammed with Jer today, because it's his birthday! ♥

OBF, HAPPY SWEET SIXTEENTH! ♥

Heehee, it was pretty hilarious, jer didn't wanna show his face, i kept seeing his legs :S

And here's the best part, THEY WEREN'T EVEN TAN, they were white, the same colour as the hainanese white chicken on your chicken rice. :p

Today was a fun day,

thank God for this one random public holiday in the middle of the week.

Anyway, it seems like it's full on mugging from now till October.

It is okay. I will make it. ;)